Clarabellafaire*

Tumblin'

2010-12-01T13:51:00.000-05:00

For the time being,
all posts I originally wanted to post here will be on tumblr instead.
(if you don't have one, you should. it's easy, and so so inspirational. everyone there is so amazing!)

photo archives/oldies fun
before and after photo examples
fashion tips/advice
makeup tricks and tutorials
personal life stories/medical issues

I just don't like blogspot as much as I thought. x:
I'll be back once I find a layout I loooove. But for now..she rests.

<3See you on tumblr (:

My Birthday Horoscope

2010-11-29T19:58:00.000-05:00

Since I'm naughty and can read the next day,
I did and now it must be shared since I find it rather interesting...^.^

You fear that you are at the edge of disaster. In fact, though, you stand on the threshold of success. You are attempting a difficult task. Others, faced with a challenge of this magnitude, might well give up in despair. You are far from happy about the circumstances you face - but you are determined to do your best. This determination, combined with just a little ingenuity, will soon prove more than sufficient to see you safely from here to success. Don't do anything sudden or extreme. Just trust your judgment.

What a fantastic little pickmeup! (: Thanks Cainer, you always have the right words!

Double Party Day!!

2010-11-26T02:54:00.000-05:00

I hope those that celebrate enjoyed the day,

and ate to their hearts content! ^.^

Since my Birthday is on the 30th so very close to Thanksgiving,

my family celebrates them on the same day. (:

It's a total win.

Tremendous food, awesome people, and PRESENTS!!!

So much to be thankful for.<3

(Our table before the 5 of us sat down to eat-I love that table cloth!)

Gram made the dinner..which as always, was exceptional!

&mom made a ton of cupcakes in a variety of flavors

my personal favorite being the girly funfetti with pink vanilla frosting and sprinkles (:

Cupcake tower! Notice the ones of pedestals? :D

My mom is such a Goddess at baking;

everything is delicious and she's got this sassy professional but unique style..

she should really open a business, or be apart of my studio/boutique when it opens!

I'll post images of my gifts & recent items I've been obsessed with;

I'm long overdue for snapshot updates!!..well, just photo updates in general.

I've got so many, I just don't know where to start!!

I'm working on it. <3

Too giddy to sleep!

2010-11-24T04:15:00.004-05:00

Thanksgiving is Thursday!A time for family, remembering good times..appreciating what we have, and who we have in our life..as well as a ton of deliciousss food! And lucky me, my birthday party will be thrown on Thanksgiving..which I think is superb. What could be better than pumpkin pie and birthday presents!? Not much. Not much at all. (:

Birthday is Monday, the 30th!

If anyone would like to send me a birthday card or present,

(ohmygoodness, I'd love you forever just for thinking of me<3)

email me: clarabellafaire@yahoo.com for mailing information!

I don't mind late cards/gifts. :p

&as a thank you, I'll be sending signed prints in return.<33

Fabulous Finds: Vintage Hairstyling Book

2010-11-12T22:09:00.000-05:00

The second I saw this I got more than excited;

I can now walk around with a gorgeous retro-do every single day!

..or at least, know how to do them. (: <333

Axe that. Plans always change.

2010-11-03T22:37:00.004-04:00

I woke up Thursday with a strange feeling.

I knew the Doctor appointment I had scheduled for 3:15 would be missed,

while every part of my body started to feel heavy more and more through the aftternoon.

In the blink of an eye, the episode began;

this wasn't one I could super woman my way through,
within 10 minutes, we were on our way to the ER.

Because I've been there hundreds of times,

the second they saw me, I was in a wheelchair, taken back to the room area..

unfortunately, I was there at the busiest time of day,

the room they wanted to put me in was taken by an emergency ambulance. |:

they would have left me in a wheelchair, outside of the rooms,

if one of the amazing nurses hadn't voiced up and said "NO, she NEEDS a room"

and put me in a special room, IV port placed in my arm immediately.

I don't remember much,

except fighting the pain with every part of my body.

And how I could not get comfortable in the ER,

so I was told I was being admitted.

For 5 days I was there (though I'd swear it was 3..)

and they were the most terrible of this year.

The vomiting continued for the first three days, until finally

they found the right mix of medications.

It was hard, repeating myself and not being heard or helped-

ALL I wanted was to feel normal..for the nausea to go away,

for the pain to stop.

Eventually it did,

and I took advantage cuddling up and sleeping as much as I could

Four pillows later, I started to feel good again. :p

During this stay I had different roommates,

the first- by far the craziest of all.

She didn't like sharing a room, or anything, in fact.

She bit the nurses, hit the nurses, threw her peas across the room..

though I can't say I blame her for that, hospital food is so terrible;

^ whatever THAT is, is what they gave me to eat. HA. right.

and decided that underwear was not needed, exposing her old lady parts to everyone.

Basically she made the stay far more interesting. ^.~

I'm now on two more medications (making it 10 a day now)

and these are serious business;

basically, for epilepsy, seizures,
& that super important nerve that runs down the center of us.

I'm not getting my hopes up like I usually do with new meds and ideas,

just taking it hour by hour, doing what I can to survive.

The good, the bad, the medical.

2010-10-26T18:14:00.006-04:00

The results of both brain scans came back totally fine.

Which, is of course fabulous news,

but also upsetting because we still don't know the source of my illness.

Oh, it's so frustrating!

Some say "This may leave as quickly as it came on"..

but when!? I don't want to fight my own body for the rest of my life,

and as time goes on, I start to really wonder if that's going to be the case.

I worry my already fragile, underweight body

will be effected in a negative way by all the heavy duty pain meds;

and I want to get off of them as soon as possible. \:

I want to work! I want to shoot everyday,

and take care of my family, instead of them having to take care of me.

And the search/doctor visits continue..

I see my Gastro doc Thurs,

get my 5th Lupron shot again in a week,

am seeing a NEW primary care doc in about 3 weeks,

which plans on going over the current plans and medications;

hopefullyyyy his fresh eyes will help a bit..

and then in December, I see the neurologist for the third time,

hopefully getting more ideas from him,
and feeling better from 6 months of the Lupron in my system.

I may possibly be having another surgery to check for endometriosis, we'll see..

*falls over*

I should just have my own room at the hospital at this point!

hahah, Goodness gracious.

From this, I'd like to become a patient care advisor,

I'm determined to never let any other ill patient go through all the trouble/traumas I have.

Whipped Cream for Grown-ups!

2010-10-06T14:06:00.001-04:00

My Mother initially found this last week but didn't buy it.

When she told me about it though, apparently the look on my face said it all..

she came home with this can yesterday! :p

There are other available flavors such as Vanilla, Raspberry & Cherry!

Less like a whipped cream, more like a mousse..

it's ridiculously delicious, and actually better than I imagined.

Though due to the level of alcohol in it,
it tastes better on ice cream, or mixed in chocolate milk,etc..than alone.

(unless you like that strong opening up your senses. hah)

Step 1: Bedroom transition!

2010-10-02T17:59:00.000-04:00

Step one: Paint new bedroom first coat: white!

This is actually now just the 'extra' room,

and was my old bedroom from 5-10 years old..

but it's time for change in my life & I want to move back in;

making my current room the new family room!<3

Halfway there!!!

I love love loveee the white!

The other half is still the strange salmon color,

as you can see from the reflection on the closet :p

3 of 4 walls will stay white during the painting process;

the last wall will be a bold beautiful different color!

& I plan on drawing a mural with my Mom in the closet<3

I'm soo excited to move back in there..

A closet! Two windows,

and the most lovely natural light for a bedroom ever. [:

Not to mention; fond memories of the BEST/most innocent days of my life..

the space is just full of positive energy and karma; which I need around me, for sure!

Waiting for October 7th

2010-09-30T19:34:00.000-04:00

A day that could be life changing.<3

My fingers are crossed, thoughts positive [:

It's Autumn!

2010-09-29T07:32:00.002-04:00

In The Berkshires;

leaves are quickly changing &pumpkin patches are ready for picking

as the scents of apple, pumpkin, and crisp leaves float through the air!♥

Reflecting nature..my 2010 fall/winter wardrobe consists of

beautiful shades of orange, red, yellow, brown & gray!

I have a few projects/adventures planned for/inspired by October! including:

out-of-town adventures, holiday decorating & baking delicious treats;

all of which will be documented here [:

Ahh, autumn. the most wonderful&inspiring time of the year! ♥

Dream Car!

2010-09-26T09:41:00.000-04:00

I came outside of the store &

the first thing I saw was this little piece of heaven!

My jaw literally dropped.

I had to get out the DSLR for this one<3

The Tiffany Blue had a SPARKLY shine finish;

and the inside matched the out!

So classy!

Neurologist; Long story, Short.

2010-09-26T07:45:00.001-04:00

Full version; on tumblr<3

Went to the Neurologist Friday with my Mother

to get a fresh view and maybe even diagnosis on my mystery illness.

He was fabulous. He did all these crazy balance tests

I can't balance and or hop on my left foot.(?!)

and after almost two hours of filling this poor man's head

with all these hospital visits, symptoms, medications..

he said he'd have to do some thinking, and we'd have to do some testing, but this may in fact be an extremely extremely rare form of seizure. There’s a possibility my brain is actually coming through the hole in my skull and placing pressure on my spine/nerves which in turn can trigger these seizures which appear as random vomiting/pain attacks.

YIKES!!!

Matched with symptoms and years of random bouts of illness it makes sense,

but the idea of that really being the cause of my problems, scares me to pieces. ]:

Waiting for the results will be intense.

For now, I just keep feeling the back of my head as if I have to keep my brains in. X:

Hah. Ridiculous.

All day All night.

2010-09-14T08:51:00.007-04:00

Yesterday I woke up just in time to shower&get to my Doc appointment,

went to the store with gram,

then worked my tiny little hiney off for literally 16 hours straight;
just like the old days!! (except then, I'd do it every.single.day.)

I'm feeling so proud of myself right now,
getting so much done after a very inactive year, quite unlike all the previous.

It's only about 25% of what I want to do,
but there's so much my mind spins when I think of it all as a whole,

so I'm currently working in sections. [:

I have multiple projects big and small waiting to be exposed to the world,

I'm just waiting for the right moment.<3

It's a fine tightrope..&a long, long fall.

2010-09-12T20:59:00.012-04:00

As her fame rises,

so do the amount of people realizing her sleek & continuous ways
of using ideas already used by the famous, and upcoming.

Names, outfits, photo-shoot ideas, and songs, all included.

Currently, Lina Morgana's Mother is Suing Lady Gaga.
Telling how Gaga stole her late daughter’s style, her daring fashions

and even adopted Lina’s tragic back story as her own,
after Lina committed suicide two years ago.
(so no, she wasn't at all born that way,
she molded herself into what the people wanted.)

How. How?
How can you take advantage of a situation like that?
To me this just proves how she's truly heartless, manipulative,
and gladly steals anything for her gain.
"Yana says she’s just looking for an acknowledgment from Gaga that Lina was her inspiration,

but somehow I doubt we’ll hear that from the “Poker Face” singer."

Not alone,
model Miss Mosh has felt Gaga's wrath,

shooting sets all too similar to well-known Mosh's Alternative style.

Then asking Mosh to be in a video; like nothing ever happened.

Not to mention, my personal legal issues with her/her PR team for
publishing an image of my own in Gaga's Fame Monster Edition;
without (of course) any consent or knowledge from me.

Oh, if only I knew who to contact. I'd bring her down myself.

Ah,

really, it's only a matter of time, when you're that much of a rip off.

;)

New bed: Not for short people

2010-09-08T17:05:00.001-04:00

I'm 5'7ish..and even I almost need steps to get on it!

First image is shows how high off the ground my feet really are,

second, just shows off my fancy shoes. :D

The road to health.. Cont.

2010-09-07T14:37:00.000-04:00

Realizing the Lupron is helping, but not quite enough,

I'm going on a second medication to build up protection.

Taken with the other medication,

I should start to slowly get even better this next month!

&, with other treatments, should finally be able to live a better life again!<3

It's so exciting..

3 long years of waiting to be diagnosed,

a 6 month wait to heal doesn't seem so bad at all. :]

I'll be happy the day I don't have to take another medication to get through the day.

at least for now, I'm getting through. ^.^

I scared myself.

2010-09-07T13:03:00.000-04:00

By watching an entire six hours of Deadly Women yesterday.

All night long, my dreams mirrored the shows I had seen,

only with myself and people I know as the victims. :|

It ruined my night of sleep.

&I certainly didn't want to get out of bed for my Lady Doctor appointment!

While there, I just looked at all the women around me, pregnant, hormones raging..

boyfriend's acting like total douche bags, all mad the woman didn't use birth control to not get into this situation, even though he doesn't know well enough to use condoms.

Just wondering which one is capable of snapping my tiny unhealthy neck like a twig. :[ :-o

Honestly, all of them looked pretty willing and able.

I couldn't get out of there fast enough!

Too bad I came back to an empty house..

I'm home alone right now, tv blaring, dogs right by my side.

Hahaha, oh gosh. I'm such a baby now.

No more watching shows like that alone. or for more than an hour. (!)

Time for The Golden Girls and some Hot Chocolate<3

08.26.10; self, snapshot.

2010-08-31T11:48:00.003-04:00

[Taken Thursday, on one of my better days..in between sleep comas :p]

It's been about a year since I've uploaded a "real" portrait of myself online,

I've felt so unlike me--not editing everyday, uploading photos to share..

it came to a point where I looked in the mirror; at my photographs..

and didn't even know who it was I was looking at! :-O

Thankfully now I'm out of that fog, and as my health slowly progresses,

my portfolio slowly gets bigger. :]

I plan on uploading the images in batches over the next few days.

It'll be so exciting to get something done and feeling accomplished again!!

For now,

out with Mom&Gram to shop/shoot!!

<333

Seasonal Paper Cleanup. :p

2010-08-25T04:36:00.000-04:00

I worked on reorganizing all of my journal+photo pages, medical papers&receipts..

though having them spread out made it look a litttle more intimidating than expected!!

Buttt I did what I could..and while I'm not done yet,

for now my desk is much much tidier&things are far easier to find! :D

Autumn & the cold weather are creeping in faster than usual this year;

sending me into annual clean-up mode & a rejuvenated frame of mind. :D

I'm doing everything I can to improve my health, and my shooting space;

I'd rather have it all done right now! now!! NOWW!!!..if onlyyyy.

I remind myself patience is key, it will be so worth this long wait.

So as the seasons change..

so does my studio, my wardrobe, &my inspirations further..♥

x.o.x.

Mattress shopping adventures!!

2010-08-21T21:33:00.000-04:00

So yesterday, Mom and me went to shop for my new bed;

actually IMMEDIATLY after I left the ER.

I was highhlyyyyy medicated, so I don't remember much..

[such as taking this photo! :x haha]

But, I DO remember how wonderful/funny the owners were,

the fact that I wanted to buy/eat all of the candles they sold

(they smelled SO GOOD!),

watching James Taylor and his family walk out the door (it wasn't the drugs!)

and then modeling for the lady owner because she wanted to shoot my outfit! :D

She made me so happy,

finally someone said something nice about me/my clothes

instead of making me feel like some walking entertainment for the normal/boring masses.

I was just trying to find a mattress,

&ended up having a party!!! hahaaha. WIN! <3

[Oh yeah, found the mattress too! It's unbelievably comfortable!]

Part 1 of moving bedrooms, down!

Now, to pick out the wall colors, the headboard,

vanity, and new computer/scapbooking desk! :D

If you know of any great furniture stores, please share!

I'm looking for WHITE, vintage/victorian style furniture..

& am having a hard time finding anything decent in stores anywhere.

xox

Finds under $5!: Betsey Johnson Socks

2010-08-21T18:51:00.000-04:00

Roses, leopard print, polka dot, and lipstick image on ankle socks<3

Found at T.J. Maxx

Pair of 6.

On sale from $9.99..only $3.50! (amaaazing!)

THE ROAD TO HEALTH! Shot #2!

2010-08-21T18:25:00.002-04:00

It came totally unexpected..

but as a beauuuuutiful gift.

(and/or slap in the face. :p)

Even though I wasn't actually due again til later next week

my body was giving me all the signs of danger.

Five different days this past week I've had horrendous sick spells,

ruining my weight-gain, and sending me back down to a mean 100 pounds. :[

Four of the spells were killer, but I made it through!

& even made an appointment for Lupron shot #2 on Friday morning. :]

What do ya know,

my body attacks so badly I haaaaave to go to the ER

the very morning I'm due for my shot! (Fri, 20th)

WAHHHHHH!!!!! :[ :[

Thankfully my Patient Care Advisor is the best lady ever and got me connections

so I was IMMEDIATELY taken into a room, seen, and given meds. :]

(I can't tell you how many times before I'd be ignored to wait for HOURS on end)

Only at the ER for a few hours, and feeling much better

I immediately went to the Doctor and got the shot. :]

The difference when I'm on it, is just toooo amazing.

It's only been about 30 hours since the second injection

and the way it helps with eating, digesting, sleeping, and focus..

is already kicking back in!!!

So, this is it.

we finally know.

& a treatment's finally working!!

Now, it's just a matter of 6months more treatment of this shot,

another surgery to take out any scar tissues,etc left over..

& meeting a nutritionist to get back on a normal diet. :p

What an amazing thought, and feeling.

For so long I felt like it was never going to happen..just out of my reach..

but now I finally feel like I'll be able to LIVE again.

Incredible.

I'm the happiest girl in the universe! :DDD

Ch-ch-ch-chaaanges!! :D

2010-08-13T22:26:00.001-04:00

Since my last health update on July 14th everything finally sorted out :}

Butttt..I had the worst episode yet Monday, July 26th;

I was tough, stuck it out,& instead of going to the ER..

when I could Tuesday morning, I called my doctor &

that very day, I finally received the Lupron shot!

Since I'm so tiny and have no fat, the only place she could do it was my bum!

I have neverrr had to get a shot there before, I was such a baby! hah :x

[Band-aid is practically as big as my butt cheek!!hahah]

Now, this shot wasn't at all an easy decision.

In fact, I put off the idea of getting it for a year and half, since it's so serious,

and tried literally ALL other roads I could before having to say yes.

It basically stops all hormones, putting your body into a temporary menopause..

hot flashes and everything.

But I LITERALLY had ALLL side effects before taking it anyways,

(and haven't noticed a difference/bad side effect since..)

plus the Pros FAR outweighed CONS..so..no turning back now!

It's been almost three weeks, and changes are small but noticeable. ^.^

I find my whole abdomen to be in less pain..it's now in one concentrated area.

It's also easier to eat..I don't have to take as many meds to be comfortable..

& I'm noticing less memory loss/better comprehension!!

They say full results in 4-6 weeks;

I'm looking forward to see what's to come..

I have a goood feeling this is the first step to my full recovery!!!

*dance*

Finds under $5: Tea-time Tea Cup!

2010-08-02T13:03:00.000-04:00

On a shopping outing with the fam, I found this BEAUTY!

It was all alone in a bin full of strange chocolate and decor towels

just screaming "CLARAAAA!!! SAAAVE MEEE!!"

& it was only $2.95!! (at Marshall's) What a find! :D

I couldn't say no to that box full of fashionable sassy ladies

& hot pink tea cup with little tea kettle drawn inside!

Lunch with mom&gram

2010-07-30T20:32:00.000-04:00

At Panera Bread

(my favorite eating spot where I live<3)

We actually went the very same day I dyed my hairs with Alicia;

I just haven't gotten around to uploading the photos until now. :x

First, what I usually order from the menu!!

Soft flavorful bread(I forget what kind), yummy smoked turkey, gouda cheese, bacon,

lettuce and delicious spicy mustard sauce. :D <333

&an iced lemonade to make the meal even moreeee heavenly.

(in the background is mom's toasted roastbeef bluecheese thing. I'm not into it.)

& last, Grannie's choice:

A fruit&chicken salad, with some sort of strawberry dressing on top.

:-O

It was a pretttyyyy large bowl;

and she ate the ENTIREEEE thing..so it MUST have been yummy!

Doctor drama. I'm so over it.

2010-07-14T12:27:00.003-04:00

After that rather frustrating, upsetting

not to mention TRAUMATIZING appointment..

my family met with the head of the hospital,

the head of the ER, and head of Patient Relations..

since they realize how terribly I've been treated

and are FINALLY taking measures to correct numerous issues.

The lovely girl who is head of P.R. actually got the health ball rolling

&now whenever I go to ANY place in the hospital,
I'm treated like a QUEEN!!!

It's awesome. Though, NEVER what I needed.

I just want to be seen, given some answers, and a treatment.

At least now, we're on the way! ^.^

Unfortunately though, my insurance is a big bitch. (to put it nicely)

They LOVE holding up serious medications I NEED. :|

(since May, pretty much every time I've had to get meds, there's a problem.)

It just seems like there's always a huge bump in the road,

old witches with bad attitudes towards young women like me,

doctors that are clearly just pretending they know what they're doing,

and staff that would rather PUT THE PHONE DOWN ON THEIR LAP,

than listen to patient's concerns (about really serious issues)

IS THERE A CAMERA ON MEEE?

IS THIS HIDDEN VIDEOO?!!!

Alas, all I can really do is stay positive,
have a good giggle over it..

and realize it'll all be better soon.

but I won't play hero,
it's really draining all the energy I have left..

especially since I have to FIGHT with these people to help me!

it's so so much easier when you have a support system..

& I cannot thank those that ARE supportive of me, my illness, my work, my life..

enough.

YOU are my true life savers!

Hair dye: Lusty Lavender & Candy Pink!!

2010-07-09T06:30:00.002-04:00

My hair has been one color: platinum blonde,

for what seems like forever now,

& I've been itching for a bit of color to spruce it up!

About 3 months ago I found this Lusty Lavender by Splat (@ CVS),

then this week I bought the Candy Pink by Raw (@ Hot Topic)

I of course couldn't handle this task myself so the wonderful ALICIA did it for me!<33

The lavender wasn't so much a lavender as a DEEP GRAPE;

but what can you really expect from a box that has the hair color photo-shopped in?! :p

We didn't have any actual tools or brushes to apply the dye;

we improvised.. she used her hands and a tiny paint brush. *giggle*

It was a bit messy...

purple and pink everywhere!!

Thankfully it comes out quite easily (with Dawn!)

AAAAND THE LOVELY END RESULTS!!

I'm totally smitten with it. It's so much more beautiful in person!

The way it fades is GORGEOUS, I don't know how she did it!

The three colors are a magical blend,

& these results are inspiring me to shoot and design more!

I just feel more like ME with this hair. ^.^

Review: Bare Minerals Makeup

2010-07-06T19:54:00.011-04:00

My only regret: waiting so long to make the purchase!

After seeing the infomercial about a thousand times,

& becoming sick of wasting money on all these other products

that just DIDN'T work..I decided to cave in & see what it was REALLY like.
Might I just say, I am SO very glad I did!
It's literally changed my life,
allowing me to be proud, not ashamed, of my skin.<3

I have very very very very fair skin,

zero makeup in the stores matches my tone perfectly,

so I either look even MORE pale, like a ghost.

or, have an orange hue that ends at the neck line.

Yeah, that's attractive.

Not to mention, how most didn't even completely cover..

and those that did, were SO heavy, you could totally tell,

and I felt like I had 5 pounds of paste all over my face;

not at all a fun feeling or sexy look.

I ordered from:

http://bareescentuals.com/;

I just adore the site design,

professional, but cute. adorable girly colors, and very easy to navigate!!

Ordering was easy, and signing up, a quick breeze!

PLUS, now that I'm a member I get AMAZING discounts on all products sold!!

I can also customize the orders that come to my house each month! (awesome<3)

It shipped fast.

I had it within 4 days (and that was including a weekend!)

& it came cuddled inside the cutest bubble envelope!:

I received:

1.) Fairly light mineral concealer/foundation

2.) Mineral Veil

3.) Warmth

4.) Full face brush

5.) Max coverage brush

6.) Mascara

I am TOTALLY in LOVE with the fact this makeup is both
a 1.)CONCEALER & FOUNDATION!

& the fact it actually improves your skin,

ever since I started using it, break outs are practically non-existent. (no exaggeration!)
4.) The brushes are fantastic,
perfect for applying, and buffing right into the skin..
and tiny enough to toss into a makeup bag and go!

2.) MINERAL VEIL is my favorite part,

after adding that, my skin seems to just glow!

& 3.)Warmth is just a great dab of color, which I def. need! :p

(she has other blushes in a variety of colors, I plan on getting one or two!)

I also have the PRIME TIME product,

the silky gel you put on right before you use the makeup,

to smooth your skin and give you a flawless finish!

(I love how it makes my face feel so soft)

I've always had problems with my skin,

uneven tone, purple bags under the eyes, random breakouts, and bad scars..

this seems to erase them all, without looking fake, or hiding my frekles!

How it does it, I have no idea, but I'm in love..

and so so so wish I had been using this way back when I was in high school!

My overal rating?? 5 STARS!!

TRY IT!

I'm sure it'll totally change your views on makeup,

and you'll never want to use another one ever again!

I'm a doormat for Doctors.

2010-06-18T20:11:00.003-04:00

...or at least it seems that way.

With 90% of people there to 'treat' or 'help' me, not doing either.

I went into my appointment today PUMPED!

I was elated thinking I'd FINALLYYYY be seeing Dr. B

and have a serious, LONG OVERDUE conversation about treatment.

Well, he wasn't there of course. He never is.

He's always off delivering babies, or talking to some knocked up potato-sack.

So, of courrseeee I had to see The Wicked Witch from the West.

I've seen her before, and she's usually grumpy

but today, the baseball bat was exceptionally far up her behind so

the SECOND she opened the door, she was miserable, defenses, SKY HIGH.

& The VERY FIRST WORDS out of her wrinkled old mean mouth were:

"That's not MY problem"

while she refused to even help answer a single question I asked..

instead, she snapped back with

"I'm not qualified for that" or "I don't know. I can't do anything for you"

WTF?

WHAT DO YOU KNOW? WHY AM I EVEN AT THIS APPOINTMENT?!?

She just belittled me the entire time..

(mean time, I'm CRYINGGG because I'm so tired of being sick...)

She even had the ovaries to say,

"To be honest, you're not doing enough to help yourself"

You.

ARE.

JOKING?
...right??

No.

Okay.

Burn in the firey depths of Satan's living room.

This is just problem 38759375, and another stress.

ALMOST had to go to the ER this afternoon, because I was so upset I threw up!

&Here, I was thinking today would be a change.

HARDY HARRR. I'M SO FUNNY.

I should know better by know, but my positive outlook blinds the reality..

*sigh*

confetti pancakes!

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I could eat these beautiful things for every meal, every day.

They taste like cupcakes mixed with panckes!

& if you weren't aware, that equals heaven in your mouth.<3

Photo Archives; #2

2010-01-31T23:39:00.001-05:00

From 2004/2005;; I miss those beautifuuul glasses!<3

Looking back; Photos from '04-'09

2010-01-27T06:52:00.003-05:00

An idea of Clarabellafaire*s improvement over the years;

Take a closer look; here!

Current Obsession/Photo challenge;; #1

2010-01-26T23:19:00.002-05:00

Mine is =

NAILLL POLISSHHH!!!

*squeal*

*What's your current obsession? (maybe you have a few!)

_{-Shoot at least (3) *different* photos of whatever it is you currently love!}

_{-No old photos allowed; this is about creating something fresh! :D}

_{-Try using things from your house as backgrounds; I used cardstock&my pillow cases!}

-Send me the link!! I can’t wait to see what you love/how you photograph it!<33

x.o.bellafaire

Photo Archives; #1

2010-01-25T02:29:00.003-05:00

From when I was only15; taken with an IBM webcam. :p

The veryyyy beginnings of my photography obsession!! ^.^

x.obellafaire

Bellafaire's Equipment; #1

2010-01-24T22:55:00.001-05:00

My constant companion; I can never leave home without it.<3

From left to right;

Canon 28-90mm lens+macro, Canon eos 40D+Sigma 70-300mm lens,

Canon 18-55mm lens, Lensbaby+bokeh additions

Due to the fact my baby's getting quite beaten up in my purse;

I'm currently sketching for ideas a super special camera bag that doubles as a purse,

with special compartments for each lens, the camera, and my wallet!

It is so so cute, I can't wait til it's finished ^.^

If it goes well,

I'll be creating custom bags included for sale @ retrOH! mayhem <3

Inspiration #2: Photojournalism

2010-01-24T22:24:00.003-05:00

Photo Blog;

The Wall Street Journal

These images will change your life.

Inspiration #1: The Photographic Dictionary

2010-01-16T09:57:00.000-05:00

Here.

"The photographic dictionary is dedicated to defining words

through the literal, figurative, and personal meanings found in each photograph"

It's so simple; and so powerful.

It's an amazing, amazing concept.

How to #1: Hold a camera properly

2010-01-14T21:14:00.002-05:00

Hold the lens from underneath;

It helps you maintain more control over the camera, less shake!

Plus, it's just a far more comfortable shooting position for your wrist.<3

Intro.Pt.2: About this blog

2010-01-14T21:03:00.005-05:00

I wanted a special place for me
to post fun behind-the-scenes images;

snapshots of my life, and wonderful memories I never want to forget..

& I wanted an interesting place for you to go to be inspired!
I'll share helpful links, post my own photography tips,
makeup tricks, and a few tutorials here and there.

I also plan on doing photo challenges..

It will either be weekly or monthly;
depends on how many want to contribute!! :D

xo*bellafaire

Intro.Pt.1: Who is *Clarabellafaire??

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A 22 year old lady-entrepreneur born in California

&raised in the GORGEOUS four-seasons of Berkshires, Mass;

I'm a nature loving, space gazing, beauty admiring fiend.

Fascinated by numerous forms of expression;

I've currently been more focused on

photography & fashion design

(with a bit of makeup, scrap booking/digital arts on ze siiide!)

I plan on conquering multiple artistic genres!

~~(as well as planets. mwahahaha)~~

[voted most artistic girl & most creative with dress code '05]

The second I held a camera in my hand

I knew exactly what I wanted to do for the rest of my life;

for the first time in my life. ^.^

Self taught,
I've been working as a full time freelance photographer for 5 years
& have one year portrait studio experience;

shooting newborns (7 days old), to groups of 25,

I know how to shoot fast, shoot well, pose, pay attention to detail;

AND totally entertain you at the same time!!

My life revolves around photographs&cameras.
I work. live. love. breathe. think & dream photography.
I wouldn't have it anyyyy other way. :]

Follow my tips, and my ideas..

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You will find yourself LOVING photography more and more.

You'll find yourself completely confident, in all shooting situations.

You WILL be recognized..

&you will KNOW how talented you are;

I promise you.

I can push you to push yourself. :)

I never realized that I had this gift..to inspire people to be better.

I realize it now,
&I'm going to do all I can to artistically touch, and inspire everyone.

((If you even have ONE photo inspired by me,

it's already starting a revolution to change the world, my way;
& this is just amazing to me..THANK YOU<3))

I'm currently working on the introduction;

It has to be exxxactly what I want,
so it's taking longer than it should've to post..

but I promise you, it's coming...very very soon!