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For the time being,
all posts I originally wanted to post here will be on tumblr instead.
(if you don't have one, you should. it's easy, and so so inspirational. everyone there is so amazing!)

photo archives/oldies fun
before and after photo examples
fashion tips/advice
makeup tricks and tutorials
personal life stories/medical issues

I just don't like blogspot as much as I thought. x:
I'll be back once I find a layout I loooove. But for now..she rests.

<3See you on tumblr (:

My Birthday Horoscope

Since I'm naughty and can read the next day,
I did and now it must be shared since I find it rather interesting...^.^

You fear that you are at the edge of disaster. In fact, though, you stand on the threshold of success. You are attempting a difficult task. Others, faced with a challenge of this magnitude, might well give up in despair. You are far from happy about the circumstances you face - but you are determined to do your best. This determination, combined with just a little ingenuity, will soon prove more than sufficient to see you safely from here to success. Don't do anything sudden or extreme. Just trust your judgment.

What a fantastic little pickmeup! (: Thanks Cainer, you always have the right words! 

Double Party Day!!

I hope those that celebrate enjoyed the day,

and ate to their hearts content! ^.^

 

Since my Birthday is on the 30th so very close to Thanksgiving,

my family celebrates them on the same day. (:

It's a total win. 

Tremendous food, awesome people, and PRESENTS!!!

So much to be thankful for.<3

 (Our table before the 5 of us sat down to eat-I love that table cloth!)

Gram made the dinner..which as always, was exceptional!

&mom made a ton of cupcakes in a variety of flavors

my personal favorite being the girly funfetti with pink vanilla frosting and sprinkles (:

 Cupcake tower! Notice the ones of pedestals? :D

My mom is such a Goddess at baking;

everything is delicious and she's got this sassy professional but unique style..

she should really open a business, or be apart of my studio/boutique when it opens!

I'll post images of my gifts & recent items I've been obsessed with;

I'm long overdue for snapshot updates!!..well, just photo updates in general.

I've got so many, I just don't know where to start!!

I'm working on it. <3

Too giddy to sleep!

Thanksgiving is Thursday!A time for family, remembering good times..appreciating what we have, and who we have in our life..as well as a ton of deliciousss food! And lucky me, my birthday party will be thrown on Thanksgiving..which I think is superb. What could be better than pumpkin pie and birthday presents!? Not much. Not much at all. (:

Birthday is Monday, the 30th!

If anyone would like to send me a birthday card or present,

(ohmygoodness, I'd love you forever just for thinking of me<3)

email me: clarabellafaire@yahoo.com for mailing information!

I don't mind late cards/gifts. :p

&as a thank you, I'll be sending signed prints in return.<33

Fabulous Finds: Vintage Hairstyling Book

The second I saw this I got more than excited;

I can now walk around with a gorgeous retro-do every single day!

..or at least, know how to do them. (: <333

Axe that. Plans always change.

I woke up Thursday with a strange feeling.

I knew the Doctor appointment I had scheduled for 3:15 would be missed,

while every part of my body started to feel heavy more and more through the aftternoon.

In the blink of an eye, the episode began;

this wasn't one I could super woman my way through,
within 10 minutes, we were on our way to the ER.

Because I've been there hundreds of times,

the second they saw me, I was in a wheelchair, taken back to the room area..

unfortunately, I was there at the  busiest time of day,

the room they wanted to put me in was taken by an emergency ambulance. |:

they would have left me in a wheelchair, outside of the rooms,

if one of the amazing nurses hadn't voiced up and said "NO, she NEEDS a room"

and put me in a special room, IV port placed in my arm immediately.

I don't remember much, 

except fighting the pain with every part of my body.

And how I could not get comfortable in the ER, 

so I was told I was being admitted.

For 5 days I was there (though I'd swear it was 3..)

and they were the most terrible of this year.

The vomiting continued for the first three days, until finally

they found the right mix of medications.

It was hard, repeating myself and not being heard or helped-

ALL I wanted was to feel normal..for the nausea to go away,

for the pain to stop.

Eventually it did, 

and I took advantage cuddling up and sleeping as much as I could

Four pillows later, I started to feel good again. :p

During this stay I had different roommates,

the first- by far the craziest of all.

She didn't like sharing a room, or anything, in fact.

She bit the nurses, hit the nurses, threw her peas across the room..

 though I can't say I blame her for that, hospital food is so terrible;

 ^ whatever THAT is, is what they gave me to eat. HA. right.

and decided that underwear was not needed, exposing her old lady parts to everyone.

Basically she made the stay far more interesting. ^.~

I'm now on two more medications (making it 10 a day now)

and these are serious business;

basically, for epilepsy, seizures,
& that super important nerve that runs down the center of us.

I'm not getting my hopes up like I usually do with new meds and ideas,

just taking it hour by hour, doing what I can to survive.

The good, the bad, the medical.

The results of both brain scans came back totally fine.

Which, is of course fabulous news,

but also upsetting because we still don't know the source of my illness.

Oh, it's so frustrating! 

Some say "This may leave as quickly as it came on"..

but when!? I don't want to fight my own body for the rest of my life,

and as time goes on, I start to really wonder if that's going to be the case.

I worry my already fragile, underweight body 

will be effected in a negative way by all the heavy duty pain meds;

and I want to get off of them as soon as possible. \:

I want to work! I want to shoot everyday, 

and take care of my family, instead of them having to take care of me.

And the search/doctor visits continue..

I see my Gastro doc Thurs,

get my 5th Lupron shot again in a week,

am seeing a NEW primary care doc in about 3 weeks,

which plans on going over the current plans and medications;

hopefullyyyy his fresh eyes will help a bit..

and then in December, I see the neurologist for the third time,

hopefully getting more ideas from him,
and feeling better from 6 months of the Lupron in my system.

I may possibly be having another surgery to check for endometriosis, we'll see..

*falls over*

I should just have my own room at the hospital at this point! 

hahah, Goodness gracious.

From this, I'd like to become a patient care advisor,

I'm determined to never let any other ill patient go through all the trouble/traumas I have.