The good, the bad, the medical.

The results of both brain scans came back totally fine.

Which, is of course fabulous news,

but also upsetting because we still don't know the source of my illness.

Oh, it's so frustrating! 

Some say "This may leave as quickly as it came on"..

but when!? I don't want to fight my own body for the rest of my life,

and as time goes on, I start to really wonder if that's going to be the case.

I worry my already fragile, underweight body 

will be effected in a negative way by all the heavy duty pain meds;

and I want to get off of them as soon as possible. \:

I want to work! I want to shoot everyday, 

and take care of my family, instead of them having to take care of me.

And the search/doctor visits continue..

I see my Gastro doc Thurs,

get my 5th Lupron shot again in a week,

am seeing a NEW primary care doc in about 3 weeks,

which plans on going over the current plans and medications;

hopefullyyyy his fresh eyes will help a bit..

and then in December, I see the neurologist for the third time,

hopefully getting more ideas from him,
and feeling better from 6 months of the Lupron in my system.

I may possibly be having another surgery to check for endometriosis, we'll see..

*falls over*

I should just have my own room at the hospital at this point! 

hahah, Goodness gracious.

From this, I'd like to become a patient care advisor,

I'm determined to never let any other ill patient go through all the trouble/traumas I have.